And under the uncertainty perhaps will be direction

I feel like a broken record sometimes when the things that have been on my mind most frequently are, Okay, what next? Now what? When am I going to get that resume written? Oh my god, does this mean I have to figure out LinkedIn?

I really don’t want to figure out LinkedIn.

At the beginning of 2011, I said to myself, “Self, this is the year you find work that you are passionate about.” While I am and always have been passionate about receiving a paycheck, admittedly the work I have been doing has not been fulfilling in a long time. And sure – it was once – when I was working on projects I felt I could be proud of – when I was accomplishing things that not just any hobo off the street could do. Those were the days when I felt pretty proud of myself and liked my job.

But, it’s been awhile since I have had a burst of, “WHOA. Yeah. You just did something REALLY. AMAZING.”

I miss that.

And so that is what I seek – to make a difference, to find work that makes me happy, to work with people that I truly like. I need autonomy – and I bristle under micromanagement (which is why working from home has been a good thing for me – I’m motivated, for sure – and I can get things done. I get things done even faster without being directed on every. little. detail.).

Is that job out there?

I think it is. I’m sure it is.